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Monday, November 21st, 2005

Time:1:24 pm.
HAVE YOU:

1. Fallen for your neighbor? I don't think so

2. Made out with just a friend? Yeah

3. Been rejected? Yeah

4. Been in love? Once

5. Used someone? In minor ways

6. Been used? For sure

7. Been kissed? Thank God I have

8. Done something you regret? Yes and No. I've done things I wouldn't now but I learned, therefore I don't regret

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON:

10. You talked to? Dev

11. You hugged? My mom

12. You instant messaged? Eddie

13. You kissed? (Bonfire)

15. You yelled at? Haven't had the pleasure

16. You laughed with? Dev

17. Who broke your heart? We all know.

18. Who told you they loved you? My baby sister


DO YOU:

20. Have a birthmark? Yes, it's said to resemble Austraia.

21. Have any bad scars? Yes, on my arm/knee from the treadmill. I was trying to impress my boyfriend, granted I was about eight. Haha..ahh the lessons.

22. Have a 6 pack? Not at the moment, I can get one and lose one in a week.

23. Own your own house? Not yet

24. Own a nice car? It's considered luxury, I'd rather something else.

25. Speak any languages? I can read and write Spanish

26. Cook your own dinner? I can.

27. Color your hair? At the salon

28. Have green eyes? Brown.

HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU:

29. Stolen anything? A pencil from Michaels when I was six. Stealing is the dumbest thing, I hate it.

30. Smoked? Yes.

31. Taken? By a person. Nope, independant.

32. Obsessive? I think I'm OCD when it comes to cleanliness and neatness.

35. Panic? Yeah, when I don't hear from people, or when it comes to deadlines.

36. Anxiety? Yeah definately

37. Depressed? I have been. I have depressive tendencies.

38. Control freak? Hopefully not.

39. Obsessed with? The 'Noles, my baby sister, the thought of being in love


RANDOM:

41. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? On the beach, in someone's arms

42. Can you do anything freakish with your body? I have double-jointed shoulders. Hard to explain. If you've seen it, you know..

43. What feature do you find most attractive on girls/guys? How they treat the people they care about

44. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? Absolutely. Women are the necks that control the heads (men) of the world

45. Would you marry for money? If I wanted to be unhappy every day of my life.

46. Have you had braces? Yes

47. Do you wear lip gloss? Yes, mostly chap-stick though. I suck.

48. Do you sing in the shower? I sing everywhere. No... really

50. Could you live without a computer? Not at FSU

51. Do you use AOL, MSN, Yahoo? Aim

52. If so, how many people are on your list? 215

53. If you could live in any past, where would it be? sixties/seventies. I'm a hippie at heart.

54. Do you wear white socks? Socks aren't part of my daily apparel.

55. Do you wear shoes? Rainbows or Birks

56. What is your favorite fruit? Kiwi

57. Do you eat wheat bread or white? Wheat-healthier

58. What is your favorite place to visit? My house in Cabo

59. Fav DVD? Desperate Housewives Season One

60. Would you kiss on the first date? I don't date. I mean, first official date I would, if I'd gotten to know them already. But yeah, I don't date persay.

61. Are you photogenic? Yeah, especially when I drink

62. Do you dream in color or black and white? Color I think. I imagine my dreams, not remember them.

63. What are you wearing right now? Adidas sweat pants, FSU football tee, Teal Northface fleece and Rainbows

64. Do you eat a lot of fruit? Veggies

65. Do you have any dimples? Nope

66. Do you remember being born? What?

67. Why do you take surveys? Cause I'm waiting for my ride home.. Boredom.

68. Do you drink alcohol? Ask my friends, or my mom. Or ask my best friend, Mr. Yellowtail, maybe even Mr. Jack-he knows for sure. Ask them.

69. Do you like high school? I was a fan of high school when I was there. No reason not to be. Now, I couldn't imagine going back, as much fun as it was. You grow up when you leave and pity those still there. Life gets better, there's so much beyond the walls of SAINT JOHN NEUMANN. plus, you become someone you hate in high school.. fit the mold. it sucks.

70. What is the best accent? Italian

71. Who do you want to kiss? The man of my dreams

72. Do you like sunsets? I love them, but I imagine sunrise could be equally compelling and romantical. (yes, i say romantial)

73. Do you want to live to be 100? If there's life worth living, or things to see

74. If not, why? ---

75. Do you or have you played with a quija board? When I was under 10

76. Are you loyal? Have been and will always be

77. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? I try to be

80. Do you think you can draw well? Interior Design major, I must

81. At what age did you find out that Santa Clause wasn't real? I was ten or eleven, i asked my mom and she said, youre right

82. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? Cant count, I know all the girls say that but no, really, i cant count

83. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday? the basic daily grind shoes

84. Do you write poetry? Not really, i should though

85. Snore? Naw

86. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or side? Side, but all. I used to only sleep on my tummy. I've evolved...

87. Do you like cats/dogs? Dogs

88. Do you lick stamps? No

89. Do you use an electric can opener? At my house.

90. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon? I think at a family reunion one year.

91. Like your name? Yeah

92. Were you named after anyone? No, but my younger cousin was named after me.

93. Do you wish on stars? Often

95. When did you last cry? Before I left Naples last week to come here.

97. Who do you admire? People who stick it out when it'd be easier to leave

98. What is the number 1 priority in your life? My education

99. Do you like to read? All the time, im a geek

100. Any bad habits? Thinking about the irrelevent past, taking up smoking (blacks, cigs, other). But I'll say I still hate the taste of tobacco and I'm letting the past go. It seems to all be working out well at the moment.
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Thursday, October 27th, 2005

Time:8:59 pm.
Mood:good.
yeah im so excited. this wkend is our homecoming and we are 6-1, maryland tomorrow...! devin left me for the wkend but lately i've had fun. chilled with leah the last few days, drank a shitload of wine and vodka and beer and smoked some herb. david lawrence and mike are two of my favorite people. fake problems played at the inn between on tuesday night and they served, i pretty much bought the bar beers for a while...good facebook pics.

and im also really excited to relize that i have been so stupid for so long when it came to guys. im in fucking college and i was wasting major rnergy and time on some asshole who once served as the best companion and most amazing person id ever known. his loss, and as of last wkend it really set in: i feel sorry for him. i learned what i did wrong and moved on, he'll be the one with the more major loss. and i cant wait. not that i like to see people hurt. but sometimes thats what it takes.

anyway. wine and gal night. no floyds. tara is nineteen. im pumped. everyone had a safe weekend.

thanksgiving is coming! mark my words-good times..
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Tuesday, September 20th, 2005

Time:10:22 pm.
dude im listening to dane cook, KELLO MEMBER WATCHING HIM FOR THE FIRST TIME UP NORTH???? well anyway, im way better this week, not so homesick so much.. christ chex hahaha.. anyway yeah fake problems played last night, all the naples crew was present, im so frickin happy right now.

anyway thought i would update. hope all is well with everyone else if they are new to the college scene. its a weird time, transitioning between home and a new place, for me its about 7 hours away and i grew up in paradice (for the last two years) so it's hard to be anywhere else.

im learning a lot. meeting some people but still attracted to those who are from naples, we all are close simply because we have that in common, it's like nowhere else, everyone else is having a blast here and were more like "fuck i miss home so much" some in fact, about 75% are moving back to fgcu second semester.

so thats my thoughts. i miss marin and megs and all you other kiddos that im facebook friends with now like katie campbell and danielle sadowski, how weird is that? yay for facebook, aight peace.
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Saturday, September 3rd, 2005

Subject:Danm, I haven't had a good kissing session in a while.. FUCK!!!
Time:6:34 pm.

You're a Romantic Kisser


For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

You're an Passionate Kisser


For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

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Monday, August 15th, 2005

Subject:getting ready for school, writen previously by hand
Time:8:37 pm.
Originally written at 6:23pm today at 1st Ave.N. Beach-

"I'm going to have to find a place to write up at State, even just a library. It's close. We're packing everything up, booking the lodge reservations and saying good-bye's. Some have already left, a few will stay a little longer. Today was Neumann's first day back, I have a feeling it's fading quickly, year-by-year. I'm going to get my diploma tomorrow and seeing the 2 teachers worth seeing. I only wish everyone the best. I hope they learn a lot more than academics, I know they will.
13 has been my lucky number forever (as well as my mom's) but 23 is a new lucky number. Ironicly I haven't had any luck from it yet but that's where the faith comes in. I see it almost every hour I'm awake and I don't even look for it. My grandma thinks I'm too beautiful to be treated badly and I try not to let it happen anymore. I need to find a median between closing people out and letting myself in too much. I am trying to grow without changing who I am. People will always like me for what I stand for if I'm honest. I want to focus on school this year and develop lasting friendships. I'd rather not date and I definately am going to save myself for the one that will stay. Love isn't a word I use lightly and I know good guys do exist. Patience will be my future goal. The songs I listen to and the things I manage to stumble upon reading teach me everyday that girls, boys, women, and men alike have the same ambitions and emotions, but what gives us individuality and strength is how we choose to sort through, seperate and act on those emotions. I believe that love comes in many sizes and I would rather be needed by someone than loved. I'd be happy to never hear the word "forever" come out of someone's vocabulary-especially when talking about me. We as people will never know or understand forever and we can't promise we'll be the same in the future. Life may be predestined but God gave humans free will and choice. I promise to keep a level head on my shoulders, to lend a should to those I care about and to never again become the girl I was 4 months ago, the girl I hate and said I'd never be.
I lost the one important person who loved me not because he had to, but because he wanted to and I have him up to learn the hardest lesson of my early life. You can't change the past but you can hope for another chance to make things right, I hope one day I get that chance."

Music- tide coming in/birds/"red rag top"

NM
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Thursday, June 30th, 2005

Time:12:42 am.
yeah so ive had people over almost every night for the last two weeks. turns out i have the house until august... hopefully going to lauderdale for the fourth and averntura to shop tomorrow...

kuhns got busted.. that was chill. katie and i hid in a closet, wasted from trulucks... (they serve stiffies for sure)...

sean stevensons.. well lets say he has the bets parties, even when they are killed by one and the kegs are gone and the bunny whores are still there.. went to another party from there and then had ppl over here, hitting the sack around seven..

wow summer is amazing..

PS RYAN BRATT IS A WHORE.. but a funny one. katie and i picked him up from estero bc he was too bored to be home alone. he had no underwear on mind you and is coked up ok add... he is hillarious though.. this week will be boring without the bratt brothers.. (maverick and wingman)..

drank two bottles of greygoose and a bottle of jack in one night from my personal stash along with seventy beers or so. that was awesome. not. were addicted to blacks now and we go ou t to eat about every night, so the cash flow should be low. shopping never ceases though and we still spend at least a hundred every week at trulucks.. (each night we go) but its worth it to be served drinks and never even carded at a nice ass place on fourth being not even eighteen..

aight well theres more, always.. stay tuned.. im tired as fuck and kicked everyone out already.. yeah thats right..

ps.. facebook me.. and katie.. (if you know her)
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Sunday, May 22nd, 2005

Time:2:28 pm.
HEY HEY HEY! I'm going to the Bahamas tomorrow morning. Leaving for Lauderdale tonight though. I need the break desperately... Going to MI when I get back from Orientation...


Call.. Well don't, I'm not going to be able to answer. I need the away time...Away from life. The worst life I've ever been involved with thus far.

I've graduated and I'm done! It's weird, it hasn't really hit me. I don't have any connection to High School any longer, not even my ex. Strange. Well family is here, the people that will always be here.

Time heals.
Mariah Carey (old songs) have been a help. I think she may have experienced something very similar to me. Yes, I would bet anything. Peace Out!
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Tuesday, May 17th, 2005

Time:10:47 am.

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Yes, well that makes sense to me. Thank you Tim Mahoney for your post. It basically stated that when we look around at the sunny sky and the beautiful water and beach around us, we live in paradice. Graduation on Thursday, Family will be down, Bahammas on Sunday (for a week) and then back to Michigan for Mai and Meg's grad parties. Then back home finally to be a kiddy counsler at the YMCA

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Wednesday, May 11th, 2005

Time:12:00 am.

I would like to start off by saying HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY KELLOGG! I wish I could come see you. In fact, I need to see many WB'ers. Marin and Meg, I miss you guys a lot a lot. I'm coming home early-mid May after Orientation. I would like to say that my life was very easy. I always wanted something that I never knew existed, well then he came around. I will never say that I didn't learn a lot. I pretty much had the greatest boyfriend in the entire world and I really probably didn't show him enough how much I loved him... although I did. But not as much as he did. He's trying to punish me now and it is working. I hope we get back together but until then I'm thinking that summers are pretty much the most amazing time of my life. Last summer (I can't even begin).. This summer I hope proves to be the same with or without him. It all takes time. This is still new so some hours I'm sad and some hours (as this one) I take the unusual "fuck it" attitude. Strange for me, Miss. Emotional. I realize that the more time we are apart (we were together every hour every day non-stop), the happier we are.

A lot about break-up's is left undecided. I don't want to make the wrong decision. I have only 17, barely out of High School. Yes, Thursday morning is my last final. I opted out of 3 finals and took AP Bio this week. So, 2 FUCKING DAYS! I should be pumped. I got my cap and gown today and I get my special NHS/service etc. rope things Thursday at the awards ceremony. My school likes to have 6 day graduations. MAY 19th by the way.... anyway yeah I never write in here anymore, so the update was neccessary.

There are awesome guys out there. I had a great one. I shoot myself in the foot for trying to steal him from everyone else. He's afraid of me leaving... the reality of human emotion. I have faith we'll figure it out together. Could you leave this guy?

 

Dear Hunny, You are who you are and that's what I like. Never change for anyone, you mean the world to me Jimbo...Everyone has tough times, these are ours. We'll get through them right with a few bumps in the road. Love Jimbo...

 

FUCK THE BUMPS IN THE ROAD. NO TIME FOR BUMPS. IT'S NOW OR NEVER. (it aint over 'til it's over)

 

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Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005

Subject:beach
Time:6:20 pm.
yeah so i live in the city of dreams. not l.a. where you have dreams and end up being a prostitute who magically meets richard gere. i guess every city can be the city of dreams, they all have potential and it could be argued in a room full of people who love where the live that each one is better than the next. i can only look to naples (miami, tampa, lauderdale, and encompassing areas) and the walled lake, west bloomfield, bf hills areas of metro-detroit, michigan. i definately miss it there. especially the shit weather and snow. i miss the people and the dry skin that is mostly white or tanning booth tan. but then again, who wouldnt want my life? it is amazing. i have changed, im not so much into the hardcore partying that i once was, and i suppose that is in part due to the class of 03 and 04 leaving. then there are us. the class of 05..almost gone too. then its off to fsu and maybe those partying pronciples will resurface, in fact, im sure they will. for now i am content. im on month four with my boy and it isnt snowy and we dont deal with snow and slush, but we deal with old drivers, mexicans and snotty bitches. it all equals out. i love my cultural views and how im almost half one person and half another. its hard to understand unless youve been in this position. i need to visit. and so do you.

in fact i have some visitors next month. marin and meg need to also call me back sometime. on the phone that i do not currently posses. i will post a new number when i have one. i dont really care to listen to messages or talk to anyone though. so im not sure what that means. maybe its back to that contentness.. alright that's enough. i only do this once every few months.

xo me
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Monday, December 27th, 2004

Time:9:32 pm.
merry christmas, mine was good.. got awesome shit, went to aventura today... it was nice. got to go home and see my baby sister and my gramps... oh yeah james and i have a dog


miss yall michiganders.. come see me!!!
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Wednesday, November 24th, 2004

Subject:yeah.... bored and can't poop
Time:4:27 pm.


You Are Cranberry Soda



Pucker up!


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Monday, October 25th, 2004

Subject:homecoming
Time:10:40 pm.
went to homecoming for like 45 minutes, left and went to jons for the senior party. drank a lot of soco and played card games. christa was drunk haha.. kissed a lot of girls and a few guys and smoked som,e blacks and peed in the woods. fell asleep in my car while making out with cameron as katie drives away. got bad directions, west on santa barbara.. went to ashleys. never made it inside. slept for three hours. jon came out and offered me another beer. i yelled at some people, katie went back to jons. jimmy took me back to his house, walked to the beach 13th haha no 1st. came back, wanted to play pool but he wouldnt let me. banged on the couch. the end. actually scrach that last part.


comment. peace.

ps...bleeding weirdly.
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Monday, October 18th, 2004

Subject:HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATIE!!!!
Time:9:04 pm.
yeah so katie wasnt even in school today.. she has a ball sack.. haaa
ps.. happy belated to meg (17) and josh (22).. yeah 22... hahahaha

these are the things i can think of:
-my lazy eyes
-stripping/pools/scars/8151
-"i don't know, i've seen some pretty shitty assholes"
-katie: why are they haning out with us, were such losers. nat: why are we hanging out with them, they are such losers (latino music in the background)
-my mom: ice cream?
-fsu, yeah we should just screw all the rest haha
-sisqo noise (hhhhhheeeehhh)
-HOLLA!
-weird body ^
-me running into the door at joe's.
-going to mcdonalds twice
-peeing on zack's lawn
-stealing sebi's cd (whiloe breaking into his car)
-never going to work
-that's not metro, that's hygiene"
-ball sack..period
-agua diente
-i alwyas drive, why cant you drive, i dont get it
-passign the drug test
-scary guys at 7
-eddie never going back
-heres some $
-used condom on the ground out back
-im 18. come here i want to show you something. im scared. bye.
-3 fingers. bullshit
-your mom called, she brought your herpes cream
-2 handles at richies
-b bingo
-ceo's and business hoes
-shit pills
-hi, im allison. KATIE MANURI/NATALIE.. oh god jay jay
-omg, have you seen his gf, shes so ugly.
-your mom looks hot.


many more but oh well..

peace out all..
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Thursday, September 23rd, 2004

Subject:Pump it up!
Time:12:00 pm.

Saint John Neumann High School vs. The Community School of Naples     Junior Varsity and Varsity Volleyball games...


 


                       Tonight


at The Community School of Naples.


          6:00 JV and 7:30 Varsity...


             


                     Be there!


Yeah so I guess the CSN'ers have been talking shit about this game all week. Their middle school kids are even all going to be there. This is going to be amazing. Our girls have been playing and practicing. We have such togetherness to kick their ass again, but this time on their own turf... Come see it, you shan't be disappointed!


 


P.S. Attention Katheryn Manuri, I Love You!

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Tuesday, September 14th, 2004

Subject:talking abotu getting laid and amazingness: with two people right now haha
Time:10:48 pm.
so this trip def turned out well. thank god i dont have to stay until sataurday. it was perfect. i called liz, i still dont know if marian won but i assume they did. ryder cup so they are out and i dont give a danm. wow have grown this year. i miss katie like the back of my hand. isnt that a weird saying, i dont know the back of my hand at all.

saw my cousins all day sunday, it was tight.

monday i went up to state. saw kello. i love her, yakeley is awesome. the girls are so cool, im happy for her..jealous, my time is soon. had some daquaris (aka shots)...saw amy too!
went over to holden. couldnt find the brakes on the bike on the way over so def could have died. had a few beers, watched some madden battles. made ryan share the bed SINCE HE HAS HIS OWN ROOM haha. oh yeah i met the nip/tuck fiend roommate.
woke up. sat. slept. sat. watched sports. watched more madden battles, as well as halo. shoulda went to get a beer bong. didnt. saw dill. that was awesome.

shoulda got pics. never have a camera. should invest in one that i use.


college is too far. i cant deal with it. state is nice. too bad randall is good at football. asshole doesnt go there. i think i was supposed to lose it to him. shit. that stuff always gets messed up. hahaaaa. great convo tonight, danm i miss those.

so ill be in tampa at 6pm. naples at 9pm. school maybe after that.


naples: chad's multiple parties. luke's phone calls. sebi's lies about katie kissing. break-ups that were fake. reuther getting shit for his stupid date. eb's phone isn't working.. hmm. LOTS OF PUKING. the end.

a lot more. but im a loser and i dont take time to add shit.
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Thursday, September 2nd, 2004

Subject:no need to explain.
Time:8:58 pm.
havent written in forever.
school is good. great hard looking classes that arent.
walk around school aimlessly, go into other rooms.
psych is awesome
new teachers rock.
art is the shit.
almost done with all college shit.
just the essay is left.
wrote one.
did scholarship shit already.
motivation to all you others...
miami... im a failure.
im tired
worn out
eric and steph are not getting back together
happy early bday ryan randy and mom.
sataurday is the best day for bdays.
18. period.
boys here are good.
minus the homecoming sit...
yeah about that.
nik is over, talking to me here.
hurricane day tomorrow.
half day today.
i work at hollister
and biminis.
ok im done
although i could go on forever
this took me 70 seconds tops
gaurantee it.

peace
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Monday, August 9th, 2004

Subject:In for the count.
Time:11:47 pm.
woke up at 530am to be at the hospital at 630 to go into surgery at 830. they put the iv in like an hour early and i freak out because they always mess it up with me. this time she had me bleeding out of the vain all over my arm. so i laid there just keeping my arm straigth and it was froze cold. i went in they had to inject me and have inhalations..i came out like 5 hours late. i had a bad infection she had to work through and clean and fix. my ears have been bleeding all day and i have drops, im nautious and i cant walk. i woke up and said "katie". i thought i had woke up drunk and then i realized i was in the hospital and there were nurses. i kept babbling and i was all dizzy and drunk and i was slurring and passing out mid-sentance. im home now and tired. i got codine pills and a lot of pain killers. im just basically drunk and i can stay awake for a half an hour and then pass back out. so tonight is catch-up time. well see how i am in the morning.

jeff got rushed to the er from biminis tonight.

katie i miss you. tell me how richies went. call me tomorrow, check on me :)

back in 6 days everyone. seeing my cousin wednesday. weddign saturday and sunday. birthday friday. so basically two days left of torture. its not all bad, just mostly. haha. night.
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Thursday, August 5th, 2004

Subject:i cant help it
Time:9:13 pm.
when things are good, they are good. then you have to leave. then you wonder. a lot. too much.

i cant avoid depression being here. i thought i could handle it for a short period of time but no i cant. i dont want to talk to him. or them. or anyone but marin and kell. even they have other shit going on. i hate bonfires. i hate life here.

i came for a few appointments and some more pictures. im missing my sisters bday and im stuck here for mine. please try to remember and throw me something when im back. im missing a lot of kids leaving for college and the ones im not missing, im barely there for.

it sucks i hate it. and now i cant help but think about boys seeing as to i just saw a cinderella story. yeah i hate movies like that because they never happen. i dont like it when my mom has to say to me "why cant you get a good guy who youre interested in who wants what you do". thats sad. and i cant answer it. theres something about me. i attract guys who just want a quick almost-bang or guys who lie and then cheat and never really want you anyway. thats what it amounts to. not wanting.

school when im back. cant wait. summer will be over, no more fun yet no more drama. ill try to get through it with all the assholes and fake people and then go to miami with katie.

fuck michigan. fuck guys who miraculasly have time now that im not around or guys who dont even remember that im coming back. fuck it all. fuck sitting on the couch or sitting at a bonfire even with a beer. this is what makes me an alcoholic. i need about 10 shots of VODKA to cure this shit. yeah.

peace. had to let that out. i called katie. got mad. grr. story of my god danm life.
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Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004

Subject:wow
Time:8:50 pm.
i wish i remembered more shit when i drank. i get bits and pieces from people and we all try and piece it together. so thrus fri and sat we were at richies. sunday was my going away thing and it was so much fun. between 8 of us: richie christian matt zack brian pat me and katie we drank 2 handles. i woke up next to matt.. everyone had a hangover.. not me though. rum is okay no vodka, katie is reversed, we are switching. it was a blast. uh yeah well im back here for a short time, packing and all that. wedding.. marin and i's bdays..

peace

miss it already. did i hook up with your bro dude? i think thats a negetory.
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